http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20100503/ap_on_go_ca_st_pe/us_us_nuclear_weapons

seriously?!!??!!?!!?

it takes a real friend to tell you how it is.
and that got me thinking,

too much thought to really get into words

i asked myself, if i could have one wish what would it be?
like i'm on trial for ms. america

..if i could have one wish it would be so simple, yet seemingly impossible. but hey, IF right? i would wish the world to remember why we are all here. i would wish for us as a human race stop and take a breath of fresh air. look up from the tunnel, remember what planet you live on, the people you interact with. remember what it feels like to mess up, and make things right again. remember that even though life goes on, what is the meaning of it? you can choose to conform to the world that tells you not to think about 'meaningless things' or you can make a stand. and be the change. i wish the world would wake up, and that every individual would take a stand for what they believe, for what they were given, for what they were born into. this is planet earth, we inhabit, we take, we exploit. we can look and see the devastation all around us, but we keep going. when does it end? something has to give. i wish hope for peace.




now, i can wish this for everyone
but to wish you must actually believe
where do i stand?
i am guilty, just like the person reading.
should i waste away the day?
..only to still be waiting

i am forced to be a sitting duck.
i could choose to act, but it is not an option for me.

there are still moments
i've blocked out the major things
but the small things.. even..
i can't even share
i ask why someone would go to this
i am guilty, of being extreme.

two wrongs don't make a right.
it is almost embarrassing that i ever thought those things about you

i don't want to keep thinking about this.
it is lingering.
almost like a scar.

you made your mark, all right.

A man walks into a bar that has a robot bartender.

The robot serves him a perfectly prepared cocktail, and then asks him, "What's your IQ?"

The man replies "150" and the robot proceeds to make conversation about quantum physics and the Hadron Collider, bio mimicry, environmental interconnectedness, string theory, nanotechnology, etc.

The customer is very impressed and thinks, "This is really cool!" He decides to test the robot.

He walks out of the bar, turns around, and comes back in for another drink. Again, the robot serves him the perfectly prepared drink and asks him, "What's your IQ?"

The man responds, "about 100." Immediately the robot starts talking, but this time, about football, NASCAR, baseball, supermodels, favorite fast foods, guns, etc.

Really impressed, the man leaves the bar and decides to give the robot one more test. He heads out and returns, the robot serves him and asks, "What's Your IQ?"

The man replies, "Er, 50, I think."

"So," the robot says, very slowly. "Have you already volunteered to help Sarah Palin's 2012 presidential campaign?"

i went to that room today
at first i couldn't tell if it was you, i honestly can't really remember what you look like.
i distracted myself
i look up and i see the elders

i accidentally say something outloud
i'm getting nervous
i just want to leave

i didn't deserve that
all you had to say is that you made it all up

one word and you could have changed my world
i don't care that you did nothing, because i can say i don't really care about you.
you got what you wanted, and now i can care less

i learned so much, so thanks.
no one can bring me down
i still have a smile on my face at the end of the day

thanks for the goodbye!
i'm gonna take the high road

hello world
this is the last week before exams!
i also go to court to get all that crap taken care of, stupid white boys can't handle a real woman. YA KNOW?
just kidding,
i'm not really sure what i'm talking about

it's funny to hear that my ex still talks about me
i don't even remember the last time i said his name
i even cringe when i hear someone else say it.

i can't wait to get out of the east coast
i'm done living in this foreign country.

other than that,
the withdrawal symptoms seem to lessen each day and i'm happy that i am not feeling as sick anymore. i'm happy with who i am and i feeling like people actually like me for who i am; not trying to change me.

i love my family.
i love my kitten.

i love that i'm getting out of north carolina :)

withdrawal from SSRIs
why did i ever let someone convince me to take them
my body feels horrible
but i will not be controlled any longer


but..
for now
i must suffer

be patient with me.

SO MUCH IS GOING DOWN
all these strange coincidences.
something is the meaning of all this.
we have some unfinished business
when you going to stop being so chicken?
i'll take you fried not grilled..
my odd lover ?
even though i imagine myself flipping you off
as we pass by
that would feel real nice.

Amen